The Begining

Ok here I go :) I am not a great speller or good at sentence structures so forgive me lol I have Lots of ADD moments so my train of thoughts are sort of rambling lol Ask me questions at anytime and I will try to answer them.
    Hi for those who dont know me my name is Leah Yoder and I am currently 31yrs old. I have lived in Grand Rapids, MI for the majority of my life. I have a non cancerous Brain Tumor that hasnt stopped me from living :)

    When I was 8 my dad decided to up root my family ( mom, brother, & I) and be a missonary in Indonesia. At the time I hated the idea of being away from all my friends but didnt have a choice lol. After I got there I really loved it and didnt really want to leave lol We were gone of a year. in that time we were in the Philiapians, Singapore, Amsterdam, Switzerland, Germany and a few others for very short times. Its gave me a new outlook on how lucky I really am. Saw lots of poverty and other things that a girl of 8 should see. When I got back I was changed for the better.

My dad has worked with physically and mentally challenge kids my whole life so I think that is why I have so much compations and patience for others. And am thankful for that. Dont get me wrong I have moment where I just cant stand some one and there stupidity but I try to find the best in everyone :) I am human lol

I have been thru so much that I dont know where to start with all....Yes I told you a little already lol
One thing you need to know about me is that I have been raped 3 times and have come out stronger each time. I was early young the first time....I thought it was a game and didnt know that it wasnt right. The second time I was 19and staying over at a friends house and her boyfriend was drunk and High. I remember waking up to him tieing me to the bed and then raping me as I was screaming at him to get off. His cousin tackled him and my friend called the cops...I made a deal with him that he get sober and clean and I wouldnt press charges but that there was a case filed. the last time I was 22 and was an ex who wanted to "talk" when I ran into him at a party. It was my mistake to go into the bedroom alone with him knowing our past...I would never want anyone to go thru it cause it can destroy anyone. I was in a deep depression and very quiet but realized I didnt want it to change or run my life so I moved on. I think that is part of why I let myself get to be so over weight so that I wasnt taken advantage of. Now I am trying to lose it cause I hate the way it is making me feel lol I dont care about what I look like cause if someone really wants to know what/who I truely am they take the time to get to know me for who I am not what I look like :)

Yes I am a very smily person and Really try to find the good in everyone. But I do have some major faults too. I need to let go of the past and also find a way to release some of the stress I have beside out bursts. I love to draw and be artistic :) Love photograghy and have my dads old 35mm camera that I love to use cause I cant see what I have capture until its developed lol :)

Ok that is all for now more later

Turtle Love <3

LeaH